well seriously im tired of waiting for miracles... 2 yrs seem like a million years of prolonged wait...........

haiz...
he is juz SLOW!!... DUMB I GUESS
like his dumb is never ending.. this is so preproterous..
haiz.. im feel so pique...

wow.. all the P words..
anyway im tired of waiting.. its so never ending... todae anuder disappointment.. i dun wish to see him already.. its like... wadde...

ain was telling me tt he dun deserve me.. haiz... bud i still love him.. i juz wan him to noe how i feel now... i noe i am expecting too much.. bud im so depressed tt i have to MISS TWO IMPORTANT CELEBRATIONS WITH HIM... ive to like miss it... or sacrifice it.. even if its not my birthdae.. its his.. bud i feel so sad dat i didnt get to celebrate it with him.. its like.. he celebrate it with his family.. his friends.. me???? not even anything lorrr... i dun even get a chance to give him the card i make...

haiz... jerome.. stop doing this leii.. im seriously tired and sad lorrr... everydae is so depressing.. haiz.. u not making my life any better lor.. apart from my problems.. i look forward for u to ease it.. bud ur adding it la.. haiz..

haiz...
haiz...
haiz...
s
a
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disappointed
utterly disappointed


well
didnt get to go out..
coz his mother dun let..
last min sum more
haiz.. so not going out lor..
shd i think of the bright side??
well bright side is i get to spent more on my studies

negative part.. i disappointed coz i didnt get to celebrate his birthdae like wad i wanted to do la...

haiz.
i dunno wad else can happen
juz hope tt i wun have to let go..

haiz....
im all mixed up
guess wad...
it happen again
well...
im juz scared.......
scared tt e matter becomes worst...
why is life so unfair..
when two person are able to compromise..
anuder problem come
life is so unfair...
why why why
why cant she understand
am i wrong to be who i am
or cant ppl juz change their perspective
and be open minded?
haiz....
anuder thing...
im so disappointed in u...
very....
although its only a week...
bud i still feel being distanced away from u
why muz it be like tt?
why??

are we fated to be so
or do we even have fate?

hey.. its been long since i blog.. very very long.. let me write a proper post todae..

well school todae.. as usual.. nth much.. had contact time.. seems tt everyone is going to be involved in the haunted house.. threw some ideas too.. going to be fun fun fun.. this sat.. yea.. den wen on with lessons... recess... lessons.. den after sch, was searching for ms yew high and low.. coz of the consultation thingy.. finally had to sms her... and she called.. me ain and ana in class.. hahakz.. den we went down to HOD room.. and dere she was.. so she sat down with us had sum chat.. and i booked her.. on wed.. lol.. its like getting a free tuition la... ahhahakz.. lol
im really determined to improve!!!

hahahkz.. so yea.. went home.. alone.. i dunno where he was.. didnt bother to look.. went home.. den went to do the essay thingy.. for 2 hrs la. den had dinner.. mum cook steak!!! finally.. ahhahkz.. den do my homework.. revise bio.. now doing amaths.. bud e new wksht seems diff..

overall im quite happy with my work progress.. finally i achieve to stay home almost every weekend.. didnt go out as often after school.. and yea.. i study almost everyday.. do all my homework.. every weekend.. make sure i study for test.. and tadaa... i will produce gd results.. slowly.. I WILL PROVE IT!!!!

ok so muz continue e strong perseverance!!!
yea

so see ya.. =)